How Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness Day Can Change ALL Of Us...

Today is a national day of remembrance for the babies that were lost to miscarriage... stillbirth... or as infants.

You might be tempted to click away, feeling this entry just doesn't pertain to you.  But it does.  This entry is relevant to ALL of us - women young and old and even men.  Surely we've all come face to face with a woman who has lost a baby.  It's hard to know what to do - what to say - how to act - know what she needs.  Hopefully, the entry below that I wrote last year on this day will help you in the future.  But if not, please use thirty seconds of your time to think of the lost babies - including mine - with love.

There is an interesting movement on a website called "Count the Kicks."  They encourage pregnant women in the third trimester to count their baby's kicks each day and keep track of how many movements they feel in a certain period of time.  It can truly save a lot of babies from stillbirth!  If you notice movements slowing down, you should head to your doctor right away so they can see if there is anything going wrong with your pregnancy.  Unfortunately, this wouldn't have helped me save Darcy as she had a freak cord accident that couldn't have been reversed.  But there are so many things that CAN be done - and this campaign really empowers Moms to know when something just isn't right. Check out their website if you'd like to learn how to count kicks or if you'd like to download their kick counting app.

I was also informed about a beautiful book called Sunshine After the Storm:  A Survival Guide for the Grieving Mother.  It's a collection of stories from grieving mothers of all kinds.  Those who have suffered miscarriages, stillbirths, infant loss and even the loss of an older child.  It's available as a free download to Kindle until October 17th.  Click the book title to take you to Amazon if you're interested in this book for you - or for a grieving friend.  I downloaded it yesterday afternoon and made the mistake of starting it in bed last night.  One hour later... I was still reading.  And this morning I must have hit my snooze button ten times.

Here is my entry from last year - just as relevant to me now as it was then.  Actually, even more so since we lost Gavin.  

In memory of our sweet Darcy Claire and our beloved Gavin David...

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Today is National Pregnancy And Infant Loss Awareness Day.  I'm pretty sure you all know why this day would mean something to me.

I've always wanted to devote a blog post to the friends and family of those who've lost a baby to miscarriage or stillbirth.  Today seems like the perfect day to do it.  I think many people are at a loss when looking to support or comfort the Mom and Dad who lost a baby.  I thought I'd offer my two cents - coming from my own, numerous and unfortunate losses.  This is, of course, from my perspective.  Everyone is different.  But, well...here goes! 

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Please Don't Judge.

It's very easy to project your experiences or feelings onto another person.  Maybe you had one miscarriage...or ten.  And maybe you were over it in a week...or never.  Everyone is different.  Try not to judge another person for how they handle their own loss. You may think they should be "over it" after a certain period of time - that their grief is out of proportion because the baby wasn't even born...or  they never got to know him or her.  Or that they got "over it" too quickly.  It's always best to keep your judgements to yourself and respect everyone's journey as just that...their journey.  People may find it strange that I don't recall the dates of all of my losses.  And most of the time - I don't remember how many losses I've had.  Every single time I am asked, I need to stop and re-count.  I suppose the way I deal with it is to block it all out.  I truly stopped keeping track after my fourth loss.

Please Don't Avoid.

The worst feeling in the world is to feel completely isolated and abandoned after a loss.  Let's face it - no one likes to talk about death.  And if you add the whole "OBGYN" portion to it, people feel queasy. But imagine going from the incredible excitement of life in your womb... picking out names... planning a nursery...to BOOM - gone.  It's a "falling off a cliff" feeling.  Be there when your friend reaches the bottom and needs help getting back up the mountain.

Please Drop the Platitudes!

We've all heard them - and many of us have said them.  

"God doesn't give us more than we can handle," 

"Something was probably wrong with the baby - this was natures way of taking care of that," (especially offensive if you already have a child with special needs) 

"You can try again," 

"There's always adoption," 

"It wasn't the right time,"  

"You just need to relax and it will happen"

.... and so on and so on.  Truly - I promise you - the best possible thing you can say to a friend who lost a baby is simple.  Just say "I'm so, so sorry.  I can't imagine what you're going through." (Because you can't!) Even if you went through it - it was in your own way.  Trust me on this.

While I could say something about each of the above expressions and explain why they are annoying/offensive/insulting/frustrating/all of the above, I should also say this:  If you have just lost a baby and hear any or all of the above (I've heard them all and more over the years!) - don't take anything personally.  Remember that the person across from you is probably feeling awkward and nervous and just doesn't know what to say.  Sometimes people who want to help think they can do so by giving you advice or their opinions.  Always assume (for your own sanity) that it comes from a well meaning place.  Nod politely, say thank you and move on.  Trust me on this one.

Please Wait to Tell Your Story.

If you get a phone call from your friend telling you they just lost their baby, now is not the time to start telling your story.  Especially don't tell your story if it isn't your story.  Hearing about your neighbor's daughter or your cousin's friend is not helpful.  Focus on your friend and save the story for later when the dust has settled.

Please Remember the Husbands.

A baby is made by two people.  A miscarriage or stillbirth is grieved by the same two people.  The husband bears the extra burden of society's expectation.  He's supposed to be the strong one supporting the wife as she gets showered with the attention medically and emotionally.  Please don't forget the Daddys of these lost babies.

Please Don't Bring THIS Up.

"At least you have other children."

This was a kick in the gut for me each and every time I heard it.  I have always felt like comments beginning with the words "just" and "at least" were one way to (unintentionally) minimize a situation.  The comment, in my opinion, implies that I'm not grateful for the children I have.  Just because I have two boys (that I am so grateful for!) doesn't mean I don't miss the 10 babies (9 miscarriages and a stillbirth) that I've lost along the way.  Actually, having Gavin and Brian means I know exactly what I missed with each loss.  The comment is also a bit of a guilt trip.  And there's nothing worse than a guilt trip when you're already feeling guilty for losing the baby inside you.

Please Don't Attempt to Figure Out Why.

"It was God's plan."  

"Maybe you worked out too much."

"I told you you were too {fill in the blank} and that it may affect the pregnancy!"

They are already questioning why.  They are likely already blaming themselves unnecessarily.  Try not to add to that.

Please Listen.

I've learned in my lifetime that most people want to be heard.  They want to feel that their story - their experiences - their suffering - matters.  They don't need advice or conversation much of the time...they just want you to listen.  The subject matter is painful - miscarriages and stillbirths are ugly and devastating.  But try to just listen.  And if they aren't able to talk - it's okay to be still.  The truth is - there really are no words at a time like this.

Please Remember the Babies.

If you are really close, remembering the date they choose to celebrate the baby they lost is such a loving thing to do.  If they named the baby, there is nothing better than to hear people say his or her name.  I love when people mention Darcy by name - it makes my heart skips a beat!  It's nice to send a card or a note that you're thinking of them.  And if you get a gift - one that memorializes the baby in some way is extra special.  A very special friend had a star named after Darcy Claire when she was born - and it's something I will treasure forever.

Losing a baby is a devastating experience.  And I can tell you from my own experience, loss number 10 was just as excruciating as loss number one.  I hope, on this National Day of Remembrance, that people everywhere will come out of the shadows and talk about their losses.  I encourage anyone who wants to write their story to use my comment section as a way to jump in the water.  Whether you are 21 or 71, you never forget the babies you carried.

Today I celebrate ALL of our babies...and thank them for the way that they changed us.

We remember them every day.