As of today, I am 18 weeks and five days pregnant.
Five months.
I'm not sure how that happened so fast. I am very grateful... and relieved to be enjoying a really comfortable and drama free pregnancy so far. I love being pregnant so part of me wishes it would all slow down.
But I am five months pregnant.
I was five and a half months pregnant with Darcy when I delivered her. Her cord was "hyperconvoluted," the obstetrician told us. Twisted and twisted and twisted... long and tight. We never saw it coming. I chose to deliver her - I felt we owed it to Darcy to meet her. It took an unprecedented (and ironic) five and a half days to deliver her in the hospital. And she arrived minutes before Mother's Day... in the fifth month of May.
This fifth month will be nerve-wracking for me. I suppose I wouldn't mind if this month went fast - and then the last months went slow. Maybe I could ask for an ultrasound every day so they can check on Hope's cord. I'm kidding, of course, but part of me wishes as a Mom that I could always know... always protect... always "save" my children.
But that is not how life works. And some children can't be saved, as we know in a very painful and intimate way.
But we are believing this baby born. And, with your help, this fifth month will be filled with distractions to keep me calm... positive thoughts to give me a boost... and prayers for her safe journey through the Fall and Winter.
We can do this, Hope.
Thinking of you this month, Momma!
ReplyDeleteOh Kate, I just want to reach through this screen and give you a big hug. Keep believing my friend xx
ReplyDeleteI pray for Hope, you, and your family every day.
ReplyDeleteHappy five months! Praying for a smooth month for you!
ReplyDeleteI lost my baby at 16 weeks to a cord accident and just delivered a healthly baby girl two weeks ago. Keep believing....I know its hard but one day at a time.
ReplyDeleteHang in there Kate...you can't possible imagine how many people are praying for you and your family! Come on, prayer warriors!
ReplyDeleteYou are an amazing writer! Your words always bring tears to my eyes! Every thing is going to be okay!
ReplyDeleteAnd we WILL do this Hope (and Kate)! Here's to lots of distractions and some fun along the way to get you through the remainder of your months! Keeping you and your dear family in our prayers ALWAYS. Try to relax a little (I know it is easier said than done)and let people help you as much as possible.
ReplyDeleteYou are an amazing writer! Your words always bring tears to my eyes! Every thing is going to be okay!
ReplyDeleteHugs and hopes that this fifth month passes by fast and uneventful.
ReplyDeleteWe are "hoping for Hope".... lots of prayers for a continued "drama free" pregnancy & healthy delivery! May God continually bring awareness of His love and care for your family.
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Beth
I remember feeling the very same way. I delivered my beautiful son at 21.5 weeks and like you I just knew I had to deliver him and meet him. When I fell pregnant again I just couldn't breathe until I made it past that point...it was a long hard month. But you will get through this with all the wonderful supporting arms and prayers around you. Here is to an uneventful 5th month and to a joyous 6,7,8 and 9!!
ReplyDeleteKate I will continue to keep you, your family, and baby Hope in my prayers. I will also ask Saint Gerard to intercede for you. I truly believe everything will be just fine.
ReplyDeleteSending thoughts that this fifth month will be different, a better experience for you, and that before you know it, six months is upon all of you.
ReplyDeleteHugs and healing, Kate.
Prayers for a healthy 5 month
ReplyDeleteMichelle- St Louis
Praying for you Kate. You are never far from my thoughts.
ReplyDeleteAs always, my thoughts and prayers are with you. Your words always touch my heart. I hope you have a blissfully distracting 5 month. Enjoy your beautiful pregnancy.
ReplyDeletePrayers for a smooth 4 months of pregnancy left for you and Hope.
ReplyDeleteThis is the last month of summer. Of course it will fly by. Be well. We are all hanging on to Hope for you.
ReplyDeleteI have been waiting for this post. I knew it must be soon. So many benchmarks to get by. One day at a time. One dang day at a time. You and Hope have got this.
ReplyDeletePS: you could go to one of those ultrasound shops and see her whenever you want for like $40. If you really needed to.
Kate I am sooooo happy that your pregancy is going well. I know in my heart that you will deliver a healthy, beautiful bundle of joy named Hope and she will bring much joy and happiness to your beautiful family. You all continue to be in our prayers. xoxoxo
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