Chasing Rainbows: Let's Lighten This Space Up A Bit...

Friday, August 16, 2013

Let's Lighten This Space Up A Bit...

I might not be able to change the way I'm feeling at the moment... but I CAN change the mood on here! And hey - that's a start, right?

So I have some amazing - awesome - news to share. Maybe not a big deal to some, but a big deal to me. Yesterday, Brian decided he was ready to swing on the "big" swing. Up until now, he's only wanted to lay on his belly on this swing... or sit in the bucket baby seat we have. But yesterday - he decided that it was time and asked me to push him...

...and he loved it.

We have three swings. Two sling swings and a bucket swing (Gavin's main swing) on the end. So yesterday as I sat in the middle and pushed Brian, he had this to say:

"Mama? Since Heaven is everywhere, maybe Gavin is swinging with us!"

"I bet he is, buddy! Wish we could see him, don't you?"

"Yeah," he said. And then, "Mama? I think you need to push him," as he nodded towards Gavin's swing.

And so that's just what I did. I pushed "angel Gavin" in the empty swing with my left hand... and Brian with my right. And a good time was had by all, of this I'm sure.

Ed took off for the weekend for a much needed getaway with a couple friends, so it's just Brian and me for the next few days. We started the weekend off on the right foot by going out for a spontaneous ice cream cone.

Hopefully it continues to be a sweet and smiley weekend for me and my little man.

13 comments:

AnonymousAugust 16, 2013 at 8:17 PM
Kate, you are the picture of grace. I so wish you a peaceful weekend. Love to you and your precious son.
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UnknownAugust 16, 2013 at 8:40 PM
There's so much power and fun in a simple swing, isn't there? Wishing you many more moments like this, during your weekend with Brian. :)

Hugs and healing, Kate!
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Lisa SculleyAugust 16, 2013 at 9:40 PM
You deserve to smile and laugh, and live. Sometimes it might not feel like it is right, but it really and truly is, and is the greatest tribute to Gavin you could give. Love that little boy, and the miracle in your belly too. Love and prayers.
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UnknownAugust 16, 2013 at 9:59 PM
Oh! His face in the first picture is pure pride! I just have to add that spontaneous ice cream tastes so much better than regular ice cream. Thanks for sharing.
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AnonymousAugust 16, 2013 at 10:50 PM
In the second picture of Brian on the swing there is a circle of light or a glow, I believe that is an angel (my own belief) with him
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JessycaAugust 17, 2013 at 7:55 AM
I believe Brian has inherited a bit of Gavin's "Buddha" - he is SO incredibly insightful!! Love it!!
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UnknownAugust 17, 2013 at 8:58 AM
There really DOES look like a Circle of light around Brian's head/shoulders in the second picture... Amazing
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TatumAugust 17, 2013 at 11:38 AM
Brian is such an insightful little boy. Wow. Goose bumps. I'm glad he got to swing with his brother again.
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Debby@Just BreatheAugust 17, 2013 at 12:26 PM
That is so sweet and I am sure Gavin enjoyed you pushing him! I admire your strength. ((HUGS))
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UnknownAugust 17, 2013 at 3:23 PM
Enjoy these beautiful sweet moments with your beautiful sweet boy and yep, I see the halo in that picture as well. Still thinking and praying for your whole family every day.
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AnonymousAugust 18, 2013 at 7:45 PM
Brian is just incredibly sweet. So considerate of Gavin still, knowing that he'd like to swing as well!
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UnknownAugust 18, 2013 at 9:41 PM
I agree on the circle also, how awesome..Bless his little heart. You are doing amazing with all of his questions, I so admire you..don't think I could handle it as well as you are.
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ChantelAugust 19, 2013 at 10:34 PM
My son is almost 4 and reminds me a lot of Brian, he too just decided to try the big swing for the first time this weekend and laughed!
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Hi! I'm Kate. I'm a positive thinker, an amateur blogger, a jokester, and a reality TV junkie. I'm also very lucky to be a stay at home Mom to Gavin and Brian. I have a husband that has a big laugh, a big heart and a big talent for cooking. (Thank God) Our life is not always easy, but it turns out it's more than I ever dreamed it would be. I write about Gavin's disability, his miraculous progress, Brian's successful recovery from a peanut allergy and a speech delay, my Rheumatoid Arthritis and infertility journey and our crazy, incredible, roller coaster of a life. I also remember and honor our daughter, Darcy, who we met after 5 1/2 months of my pregnancy.

I feel honored that you're here to get to know us.

Want to know more? Click on each link under the pictures at the top of the page to read our stories...

Gavin's Playground Project

Gavin's Playground Project was born from my desire to see an "All Abilities" playground built at Nemours/A.I. duPont Hospital for Children in Wilmington, Delaware. This is the hospital where Gavin spent a lot of time during his life... and where he ultimately died, surrounded by friendly and familiar faces. To mark the one year anniversary of his death, I held a fundraiser on April 5, 2014. You can read all about it in THIS post.

We raised a LOT of money, but not enough for a playground! If you would like to contribute to help make this playground a reality - so no kids will ever have to sit on the sidelines watching their peers play - you can contribute directly to the hospital through the Chasing Rainbows fundraising page HERE. Your donation will go directly to the hospital for the playground and is tax deductible. You can also create your own fundraising team page and start collecting donations in honor of anyone you want!! There is also a mailing address on their page if you prefer to mail a check. Designate your contribution in memory of Gavin Leong - or write in that this is for the playground so your dollars will go to the right place. Thank you for your support of Gavin's Playground Project!

Gavin's Trust Project

I created "Gavin's Trust Project" to help support Gavin's friends who receive services from the Chester County Intermediate Unit in Pennsylvania. I wanted to continue to try to "make the impossible... possible" for kids like Gavin, knowing well how hard it can be to get much needed "special needs" items. It makes me happy to know that even after his death, Gavin continues to help others. Click HERE to learn more about the Trust Project! All of your donations, big and small, will be added to Gavin's Trust Project to help therapists and teachers get what they need for children in this program. You can write a check made out to CCIU and mail it to: Chester County Intermediate Unit, c/o Deb Hiller, 455 Boot Rd., Downingtown, PA 19335. Please be sure to add "Gavin's Trust Project" in the memo. Thank you on behalf of me and my little superhero!