Exhibit A...

Brian has the biggest personality - he really makes me laugh every day. Lately he has been having a TON of fun with the "Monster At The End Of This Book" on the iPad. The only way to explain it is to show you in this video which I PROMISE will make you smile...

This child makes me so happy.

Aunt Bean came today to hang out with the boys while I went to my fertility appointment. The boys love Bean.

They made "carpet cookies" by pushing cookie cutters into the rug - clever, eh? And they colored and sang the ABCs...she should have been a pre-school teacher.

My fertility appointment went much better than the last. I was surprised that my body produced many more follicles since Friday! I don't want to brag, but they said my ultrasound scan looked "beautiful". *wink* I need to continue my meds (which have been kicking my butt lately - I'm nauseous day and night) until they see me on Wednesday for another ultrasound. Then sometime between this Friday and Sunday they will schedule me for an egg retrieval. It's all very nerve wracking... and exciting at the same time.

As a side note - I know lots of you who read this blog may have strong opinions about IVF. Many of you have not been shy to tell me how you feel through comments and emails. I've heard everything from "Why don't you focus on your kids and stop spending all this time on IVF" to "God would not approve of this" and even "Give it up." I'm all for free speech and all - but this is so, very important to us. We have struggled for several years now to conceive a child - if it wasn't something we felt strongly about we would have stopped some time ago. After losing our daughter, Darcy, we felt this desire even stronger. The boys, in our opinion, need another sibling. I share my journey openly by choice. Why? Because when I google looking for other peoples open and honest journeys - it helps me. I feel so honored when I get emails from women who feel like they can open up to me about their infertility journey because of my blog. I am a real person. This has been an emotional journey. I can't help but be affected by your negativity. The next couple weeks are critical. I am begging you - if you feel like you can't support me through this please don't speak up. If it means losing you as a reader - I guess that's what I'll have to accept. I don't need to hear that you don't agree. I don't need to hear that I'm neglecting my children while I'm going through this. That makes my blood boil and couldn't be further from the truth. I don't need to hear that God is not happy with us. I'm pretty sure God is on our side for a lot of reasons. Exhibit A......

Gavin!

Gavin and Miss Janna worked on his color matching today. She attached yellow and blue colored scruncis with long ribbons to each of his wrist. The hope was that he would reach out with the hand that had the yellow to touch the yellow block, and vice versa.

I'm not sure he "got it", but he looked super cute! They then moved on to another activity. Janna brought the cutest toy from Lakeshore. It's called "Scoop-A-Bug Sorting Kit" and the scooper handle is just like scissor handles - a skill Gavin needs to work on.

It took a while to get him to put his fingers through the handles - he kept pulling his hand away. When he finally did hold the scooper...

Yeah. He grasped the scissors - but not quite the concept. But he looked super-cute!!

As always, thank you for the support and love you show us every day.