There's always a "let down" after a wonderful event...and today was the day it hit me for some reason. I just feel "blah". I've been unpacking and cleaning and re-organizing for the last two days since we came home. The boys are a little"off" and re-adjusting to their schedules. Bedtime was rough last night. I'm tired. And I'm feeling very stressed.
Admittedly, I have a lot of anxiety wondering if I'm pregnant or not...and I'm trying to brace myself for a let down. I can assure you, I will be extremely (and I really do mean extremely) devastated if I am not and have to go through another round of those injections.
It's just been a rough day for me. I should be focusing on our wonderful week...Brian laughing on the rides...Gavin's incredible accomplishments...and I feel selfish that I'm not. But the reality is - today, I feel like crap. I blew it on Father's Day and didn't have anything to give Ed because we unexpectedly stayed longer than we planned and everything was here. (Don't worry - he will get a rain check!) I'm behind on a thousand things at home and feel I can never catch up...like, uh, Brian's 2nd birthday video? What is wrong with me?!?!? He's now 2 1/2!!
I'll get it together. I think I just need some good sleep and some time alone. Ed's away on business so I'll be able to work on some projects at night.
I don't have much else to report today. Gavin and Brian had a rather uneventful day, unless you want to count their first taste of Blueberry Kefir Yogurt drink which they both loved. Something else I can add to their diet! I'm hoping a glass of that a day can be a replacement for Gavin's MiraLax, which he takes for his motility issues.
Sorry for the bad post today...and my bad attitude. Hopefully I'll have GREAT news sometime over the next few days. That would definitely help my mood!!
In the meantime, here's a couple gratuitous photos to cheer us all up...
You're welcome.
*wink*
Kate you are allowed a day, (or even two!) of feeling tired/down/frustrated with life!! You are amazing and no one will fault you for that!! I just had my first IUI a week ago and will test this weekend, hang in there!! =)
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Sounds like a great time was had by all. I also had the "let down" feeling...but my hubby said at one point, "You shouldn't feel let down but rejuvenated for another round." I tried to get that thought in my head but it took a couple vacations...I say just go on MORE! So between now and the next vaca Gavin does all of his therapies and who KNOWS what he will do next time...darn backflip on the trampoline for all we know!
ReplyDeleteSorry to hear about your day. I totally understand not wanting to go through another round of injections. If you ever need ot talk, I am here. And i understand about being behind on things. Today I spent two hours durning nap time on shutter fly making an album. The last album I made was in setember 09- right before the twins were born. sigh.
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